Timing is Everything

Well, it seems I’ve gone back to my normal blogging routine, but this morning I thought it might be a good time for an update and will give me an ‘excuse’ not to work for a little bit. This data entry stuff is killing me since the website keeps giving me ‘problem loading page’ errors for some reason. So while that fixes itself, I will see what I can update since my last post…..

I have pretty much been horrible about working out. I’ve been really busy with work and while I know a workout would probably be the best thing for me, it seems to be the last thing I want to do after a long day. I usually just want to make dinner and do nothing. I am incredibly frustrated with my job right now. I like the work that I do, but the people who are supposed to be on my ‘team’ in a way are making work hell. One minute they say one thing about how something is supposed to be done and then when they screw something up (for whatever reason), they now want me to go against what I should be doing to basically cover their rear ends. I don’t want to do it so they’re calling me out as if I’m not a team player and it’s been hard for me not to cave in and do something I know I shouldn’t just to please everyone – but for now I’m still staying strong! I don’t want them to think that they can bully me into doing things that I know aren’t right (according to our national operating manual). From some comments I’ve heard, there are people at the company who want to do things their way whether they’re correct or not, and I made it clear from the beginning that I don’t play that game if I know better.

This morning I jogged/ walked a mile in 13:32 – definitely not very quickly but as usual, I couldn’t breathe well, so I did what I could. It felt great to have that ‘accomplishment’ before really starting my day. I may try to make that part of a routine once I’m able to get into a routine in about a month and a half.  I will try to keep it up for the next couple of weeks, but I don’t think that’s long enough to call it ‘part of the routine’ and there will be a definite interruption on 10 November.

I was contemplating keeping this to myself and some close friends, but I feel like I’ll end up having to explain for some reason or another, so I’m putting it out this way first. I know that not too many people read this, so it seems like a safe way to test the waters I suppose. I am having surgery on 10 November and was told that I can’t (shouldn’t? will get more clarification on this soon!) work out for a month following the surgery. I’m having a septoplasty and bilateral turbinate reduction done so hopefully –fingers crossed– I will be able to breathe like a normal person soon. I get so frustrated when working out because I’m huffing and puffing way too quickly and then after that the energy and motivation falls apart. It’s frustrating when walking to the car or up a flight of stairs and ending up winded when I shouldn’t be. I’m ready to be able to breathe. The outside appearance of my nose shouldn’t change (darn!), but based on the quick sketch by my doctor as he explained what he would be doing – there will be a drastic change inside. Steven has promised that he’ll take good care of me and if he takes any pictures, he’ll at least let me decide who gets to see them. I wish I could see into the future and would know how painful it will be and how long I’ll be loopy from the good drugs, but I don’t have a clue. It’s making me a bit nervous because I’m a horrible patient. Maybe I’ll get lucky and have an easy time with the surgery/ recovery like I did when I had my wisdom teeth extracted. I remember I slept a lot the day of and I only took one of the pain pills that they gave me – I didn’t need any more after that. I was swollen and a little uncomfortable, but not really in any pain as far as I remember…..it’ll be good for me if I have just enough discomfort to help me follow the rules.

Other than that, not too much is new. I spend way too much time working, trying to stay on top of things and figure things out, but that is probably going to slow down soon unless we continue to get a bunch of new contracts, which would be great! At least now I won’t be quite so clueless, so that should help!

I think our next two weekends will each be spent at a new track. Should be fun!! We’ll get to see some people on the 6th/7th that we haven’t seen in a while, but enjoyed meeting up in Ohio! I’m looking forward to it and am really really hoping that Steven doesn’t crash as now would be about the worst time possible for that! If he has to crash…..let’s hope for an easy lowside that only leaves a few scratches on the hardware. ;

Oh! Pretty sure Steven will be deploying with a reserve unit sometime January through March. It should be only like 60 days so it’s not too bad. The timing is what we would choose if we had to pick a time, so we can’t complain.